Often, when we have a crush, when we lust for a person, we see only a small percentage of who they really are. The rest we make up for ourselves. Rather than listen, or learn, we smother them in who we imagine them to be, what we desire for ourselves, we create little fantasies of people and let them grow in our hearts. And this is where the relationship fails. In time, the fiction we scribble onto a person falls away, the lies we tell ourselves unravel and soon the person standing in front of you is almost unrecognisable, you are now complete strangers in your own love. And what a terrible shame it is. My advice: pay attention to the small details of people, you will learn that the universe is far more spectacular an author than we could ever hope to be.
The time to be happy is now; the place to be happy is here.
( 1833 - 1899 )
I shaved my legs and I feel like a new woman.
This means I’m restarting my life tomorrow. I’m all clean and ready to take on the world. I’ve made a list of things I need to accomplish to get to the next step and as soon as I finish this list I will make another because honestly it’s all about one step at a time.
Also I think I’m going to talk to Will the curly haired drummer guy that walked me out this weekend. He was sweet and cute plus my friend told me he likes me so that’s a plus. He’s nothing serious but he could joke around with me and if nothing else he’ll be fun. I no longer feel the need to have anyone in my life that isn’t fun to be around. My friend is right I’m 20 years old I don’t need anyone that isn’t fun to be around. I have other things to worry about and dating/relationships are not my top priority right now.
Things are looking up my friends. Things are looking up.